30 days of health

How a month of afternoons outside changed my life. โ˜€๏ธ๐Ÿ’ซ

No it’s not the sun has super powers or is it? ๐Ÿ˜‚

The start of this month was not easy, I had to push myself most days just to get my fat ass up and move but it has finally been a full month I completed.

I have some pervious posts if you feel like you want to read the beginning of my little afternoon adventures.

I started this quest after a job loss, basically I had given up on practically everything in my life. I would wake up and be so exhausted from the night before sleep that I would go straight back down on the lounge. (It was a really depressing time, I wouldn’t lie. Probably one of my worse episodes). I was scared I felt drained, uninspired just lifeless.

I did the usual thing I normally do and rushed off to my doctors office and demanded new pills, better pills because the ones I was currently taking clearly aren’t working! My doctor assured me it was normally to feel somewhat down about the current events that I was enduring. I took that home with an attitude, she wasn’t going to help God they never do! Never do they listen to me! I’ll do it myself I concluded. That afternoon I went frantic searching all types of ways to heal this death I felt inside. That’s when I came across many study’s that had evidence going outside it would help improve my mood by increasing Serotonin so I wouldn’t just be a slump of skin laying on the couch day in and day out.

That was a month ago..

Today life has changed and although not drastically different it is in the process of improvement. I have goals again, a sense of wanting to achieve my dreams. Setting myself up so that this time next year I will be in a much better place not just financially but mentally and physically, perhaps even spiritually. I never thought in a million years that something as simple as walking outside for as little as half an hour then sitting as my dog plays for another would be part of the answer to happiness and success.

I am still in disbelief and I’m the one that transformed haha.

Life has been good to me and I thank the universe everyday for the positive I see in the world and it’s beauty. The suns rays feel different on my skin, it’s hard to explain but I feel more than before but it’s not pain.

With in this month I have started an online business selling my handmade products, enrolled back into university to finish my degree and found my passion to creatively express myself again. all from spending more time outside amongst nature.

Life is beautiful if you just slow down take the time and notice it. Once you start to notice the beauty, the ugly fades away !

My life has changed because I spent time outdoors just four weeks and my mentality has done a complete 360, it’s so simple you can do it to. I encourage you to get up and get outside embraces it’s natural benefits.

For now J x

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10 reason to be thankful today ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ

As I sit and watch the sun make its way down after a long day I can’t help but think to myself, I take so much for granted in this world, Maybe my unwillingness to see the good in life is why I’m so deeply unsatisfied?

My first week steeping outside amongst nature was successful, enjoyable and beneficial. One week down only four more to go, I’m intrigued to see how much I gain from the full Complete month of embracing the world around me. As I continue to think I start to realise just how blessed I truly am, I mean right now I have the beauty of being able to see all that is around me, I’m able to take in all the smells that are around, touch the earth with my feet and hands but most importantly I’m able to express myself through voice about my experience. It was in that moment I really felt I needed to express gratitude for all that I had been given from the universe ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

Here are 10 reason to be thankful today !

You woke up this morning ๐ŸŒค

  • With all that goes on in our daily lives we fill our head up with all that needs to be done by a certain time or date. What appointments we have coming up tomorrow or what places we have to be, who we need to see and how much time we have left for all that needs to be done but Do you ever just take the moment to sit and think just how lucky we are to even be able to get through another day the requires so much energy? Or how lucky we are to have been able to sleep safe in our beds at night? I know myself I just don’t see how lucky I truly am, we are all prone to forget about gratitude when we have so much daily stress that fills our minds.
  • You have access to clean water ๐Ÿ’ฆ
  • This is something I know that I take for granted way to often. The ability to bathe and drink clean fresh water, I’ve seen many adds on the tv that show me stories of people who are struggling for necessities like this and my heart aches for them. I feel horrible and I want to help but I never express gratitude that I have the ability to access clean water so easily. I take it for granted like it is a given right to everyone and although it should be unfortunately this isn’t always the case.

    You have eaten today ๐ŸŒ๐ŸŸ๐Ÿ

    Another one I take for granted is the quick and easy access i have to get food. People all over the world are starving right now and yet I have the ability to go get food at any given time. It makes me extremely unhappy to know how easy it is for me yet for others they may not know when there next meal is here, yet again I’ve never expressed my thankfulness for how lucky I am. I only see the negative when in reality I have it pretty amazing. Take the time right now to thank God, the universe for all that you have for someone right now wishes they had what you have.

    You have access to electricity ๐Ÿ’ก

    Having the ability to write this post and connect with those around the world is a wonderful experience that I know I am grateful for but often I seem to forget how lucky I am to be able to access to these things everyday. I have the ability to see in my home at night, keep it warm and to cook all due to electricity. It makes life that much easier yet I’ve never thanked anyone, I’ve seen it as a given right and well it’s not! Even with the stress of the bill every month I’m grateful for all the benefits I’ve been given because of electricity without it my life could be so much harder than it has to be.

    Laughing and chatting ๐Ÿคช

    This one is tough for me because with the constant struggles of CPTSD and depression i’m normally one to run from emotion but on the rare occasion that I wake up in a good mood I embrace it and I’m happy, I’m laughing but mostly I’m ready to connect with the world. The past is forgotten and I’m ready to move forward, The days where I am motivated to get my shit done. I never stop and think wow thank you universe, thank you for allowing me to know what happiness is what joy feels like the way laughter can make you feel. I’m quick to point out all the bad but I never focus on the good that surrounds me. So I take this time now to say thank you for allowing me to feel the good with the bad.

    The ability to learn ๐Ÿค“ ๐Ÿ“š

    If you have the ability to learn a new skill, language, solution to a problem or as simple as learning a new word then you should be grateful. The ability to retain new information is not something that everybody has the ability to do I know that I take it for granted myself! The ability to have such freedom in my educational experience is not a given, it’s a blessing. Although all children should have access to the same educational experience I have. The truth is far from it, if you have access to an education be great full for the blessing you have been granted. Without an education I could not read your post or Vice versa. So thank you universe for the ability to gain, retain and recite knowledge.

    To be able to watch the sunset๐ŸŒ…

    The ability to watch the beautiful sunset regardless of where I am or what I am doing, I’m great full I have the ability to see the beauty the world offers us. I’m great full I’m blessed with the gift of sight to be able to look into loved ones eyes, to be able to make a connection through sight is a gift from the heavens. I’m grateful I have been given the gift of sight (even if it means I must wear my glasses) ๐Ÿ˜‚ I’m great full the world can experience all the blessing that come with the sunshine like that blossom of a flower.

    Tomorrow is a new day ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

    If I miss an opportunity I know there are more out there that are for me. Tomorrow is a new day full of opportunities regardless of the mistakes I made before. It is never to late to start over again! I’m great full for the endless possibilities the world has to offer not just me but all those around. It’s a blessing that we have the ability to change and create what we want in life through the opportunities the universe gives us, we fight for or go in search for. The world is our playground and we should be thankful we get to experience all that it has to offer through it endless possibilities. Thank you heavens for giving us the next day to start fresh.

    Your past and the resilience is gave you ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ

    Without the past you would not be who you are today. I hate my past my childhood was a nightmare but without it I would not be as strong and resilient as I am. So in hindsight I am grateful for all things that have happened for without failure you ca not Learn. Failure is your greatest friend for it teaches you about yourself. I’m grateful the path it has lead me on because insight of all the bad I have had a lot of good. I don’t express enough how grateful I am for all the good I gained from life even through the pain I am truly tankful. I am still here! My strength is only growing everyday and so is yours be thankful for what the past has taught you for without that mistake Or experience you may have never known.

    The air you breathe ๐ŸŒณ๐Ÿƒ

    As I sit and watch the sun I can’t help but focus on my breathe and how relaxed I feel. I’m thankful I have the ability to breathe on my own, I have two lungs with full capability of working on their own. This is another thing I take for granted and often forget our grateful I am to be able to have fresh air and a good set of healthy lungs to function so I am able to live everyday without the stress and struggle of breathing. It’s unfortunate because again not everyone has the ability to do so, so if you can please take this moment and be thankful because one day it ma change. We may loose access to fresh air due to climate change or from the destruction caused by deforestation.

    When we truly take a look around we can see many things we have to be grateful for although I don’t express it enough I am truly great full for all I have been given in life. I am going to make gratitude apart of my daily routine in week two of four of the world outside naming 10 new things daily I’m great full for to remind myself how lucky I am. I don’t know if this is the answer to solve my problems but I’m on my way to find out.

    Thank you if you took the time to read what I’ve posted it means a lot to me. Seeing you guys like and interact with my words brightens my day and keeps me posting so while I’m expressing my gratitude I want to say a huge

    THANK YOU ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

    for now Jade x


    Iโ€™m tired.. oh so tired.

    Its wrapped around me covering me from head to toe like a slithery snake holding its prey for the kill. The weight is unbearable causing so much painful Pressure inside that I can’t hold it in anymore Im a tea pot ready to blow.

    I try and try to remove the slithering darkness that surrounds me, my thoughts, actions and emotions. I read constantly on ways to get the griped loosed, I’m tired oh so tired from the constant battle within. It’s hard to be me and be you at the same time, it’s hard to know who I am anymore without your breathe in my ears.

    I don’t remember when you first started to grab me and pull me within the waters to drown me with your darkness’s but I feel the tightness around my chest daily now, just ease up a little a let me breathe please? I don’t want to grab my chest in fear this breathe my be my last as you grasp tightly.

    I want to remember what it feels like to go out without you constantly screaming in my head how worthless I am, nobody cares oh and your favourite just kill yourself. I wonder all the time what it must feel like to look in the mirror without you, Not hearing you voice that is ice cold in the silent of the night before I sleep.

    They don’t know how good they have it do they? To not be stuck with you? To not constantly be under attack fighting what feels like myself but it’s you! It’s You slivering on in my life trying to destroy me.

    But god have mercy on you D because I’m strong and willing to fight I may be tired but I’m not a quitter! Yeah today you won but tomorrow is my day!

    For now Jade x

    30 days of health

    Day one of 30 – embracing nature can boost your mood. ๐ŸŒฑ๐Ÿƒ

    It’s Monday morning. Day one begins in the most unorganised chaotic start, Beep beep beep goes the alarm “huh what is that?” I think to myself half asleep rolling around like a bear that’s just awaken from hibernation stumbling looking for the culprit of the noise that disturb my sleep. All while mumbling erh, further proving my theory I am I fact a bear that has awoken from hibernation. Iโ€™m looking everywhere for the source of the noise on my dresser, under my pillows, on the floor even under the bed all to find out it was my stupid watch alarm. Oops ๐Ÿ˜ฌ *facepalm*

    “Dumb ass I am

    See i know myself and I knew Iโ€™d forget that I had set my watch alarm last night for in the morning so when it goes off, it would incline that Iโ€™d have to actually get out of bed to find the source of the alarm. Instead of hitting that sweet old snooze button ๐Ÿ˜‚

    Good work past me, got the ball rolling for Todayโ€™s me!!

    Iโ€™m awake and in bed cuddling with my husband when he leans in and kisses my forehead while whispering he loves me. I just soak in the moment and enjoy the present something I donโ€™t normally do. It feels great just to embrace the moment of pure love. God how I do love him and so grateful to have such a patient man, but how the fuck did he not hear the alarm five minutes ago?

    Time to get up I convince myself I roll out of bed as my feet hit the fall I feel the fatigue hit me. “Eh it’s going to be one of those days” I think to myself and I stubble across the hall to the bathroom. Omg the chill of the morning air hits my skin “jeez it is bloody cold.” I turn the shower on as quickly as humanly possible and jump straight in to retain all the warmth in my body.

    Once out and dressed I think it’s Time to get embraced amongst nature, Iโ€™m still fatigued and not really feeling up for it but if I quit Iโ€™ll never know if nature can help increase my mood and hopefully be one step closer to being one day be medication free.

    I grab my dog Bella get her ready and off we go,

    we arrive to the dog park โ€œokay jade just an hour then you can go homeโ€ thereโ€™s plenty of other dogs for Bella to keep her occupied.

    I find myself a seat under a tree half in the shade and half in the sunshine, itโ€™s quite a warm day so I really donโ€™t want to be full emerged in the sun. I open my book up โ€œtime to get some reading doneโ€ I think to myself as I take one last look around embracing the sun and wind on my skin. The way the individual leaves on the trees move among themselves as the wind brushes through.

    Bella is off running with the other dogs they are having a jolly time, time to get my head down and see how much I can get read.

    As I flick page after page with a brief look up every now and then to check on Bella I suddenly notice the time and how it has gone by so fast. Wow, I think to myself an hour already. Sheโ€™s still happy playing so I put my book down and I decide to jump up join her. We start playing tag she loves it her favourite game. I think she enjoys the fact she can outrun me so she always wins haha.

    Huffing and puffing I have the feeling like I could take on the world, Iโ€™m getting stronger than before and it feels incredible. Instead of being tired and fatigue like I was before the park, I feel energetic after a workout.

    I feel free,happy, Iโ€™m me at the moment not my illness an feels so good to be me. I mean nature and exercise sure did boost my mood and productivity, feeling pretty incredible.

    But negativity and it’s thoughts aren’t far away and they start “How long is it going to last how much longer before the cloud creeps in again and grasp me till Iโ€™m completely in its web of despair? I question myself.

    Is this why I to fall back into the darkness because I expect it every time something is to good. Am I to scared to be happy? Do I enjoy the pain of chaos? I have some serious soul searching to do I hope that within 365 from today Iโ€™m in a happy healthier state from mind body to soul.

    I Promise to hold my own Iโ€™m making my life a better experience. One step at a time slowly but surely, I will be able to succeed and Persevere to become who I am without the labels.

    The outcome after the hour an half of being outside, I felt clam, I noticed how nice I felt when the wind braced across my skin leaving me with a cool breeze to take in or the warmth of the sun on my skin. I hope that feeling I got after today keeps pushing me for the next 30 days.

    Wish me well Iโ€™m going to need it ๐Ÿ˜‰

    Thank you again for your time, I am truely great full for even having one person view so thank you ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

    P.s if you feel like you felt inspired or motivated Leave a like or follow for more updates.

    For now Jade x

    30 days of health

    Is Nature an all natural way to treat depression ft Harvard university study ๐Ÿ€

    How many of you feel happier being outside under the sunshine with wind hitting your skin just taking the moment in?

    Harvard university has conducted a study that states nature can infect improve our overall mental health. I have written of this earlier so please feel free to take a look back and read it through.


    I have decided to conduct a study of my own to see if nature Can in fact increase my mental health. During this time I will change nothing at all about my day or diet expect Spending a full hour outside amongst nature, I will not have any electronics on me at this time so I can fully embrace nature and itโ€™s presence around me.

    Reading through the study it got me thinking about how much time I do actually spend outside on a regular basis and it turns out it is not as much as I would have originally thought.

    Is this why depression is on the rise in this generation is it due to the fact we are simply not getting enough source of vitamin D due to such hectic Pace of lifestyle?

    (To make this clear I am in no way a doctor or scientist ๐Ÿ‘ฉโ€๐Ÿ”ฌ.)

    Just a regular person struggling to find away out of the darkness and looking for answers that do not Involve constant doctor appointments, visits and medication. Something I can manage and natural. Thereโ€™s got to be something right?

    Basically the experiment I am looking at conducting is the following.

    Can nature increase serotonin naturally?

    Basically my Aim is to see if being in nature can produce serotonin in the brain like Harvard suggest.

    Iโ€™ll be Judging by how I am feeling during the day, after and before the time in nature. Tracking my moods by having a mood journal.

    Iโ€™m hopeful that the outcome will be a positive one that I can continue to help me on my journey to overcome the Darkness.

    Thank you ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

    Donโ€™t forget to hit that follow button to follow my journey through my own little study and once again thank you for your read ๐Ÿ’•

    For now Jade x


    Is Exercise an all-natural treatment to fight depression – ft Harvard Health

    Does nature have the ability to cure depression?

    As I walk along the rocky path I sense myself focusing more on my breathing, with each foot hitting the floor a sense of feeling of greatness and relief rush over me. Was it the excitement that soon I will be at the waterfall therefor the walk would soon be over so my reward systems were reacting or are there a connection between nature and depression?

    I am a normal person well what I consider normal haha I’m sure if you read my thoughts you wouldn’t think so but anywho I’ve been struggling with depression/ post-traumatic stress disorder for over 8 years now. I’m finally now at the point in my life that I have let this illness take enough of me. I want to be in control again, I want to be able to successfully say I overcome this mental illness.

    Through research, I have discovered many ways to naturally produce secretion, reduce stress and anxiety. With most of us City living the constant hustle and bustle of daily duties we really don’t get much time in nature, I mean after a 9-5, cooking dinner and then your relaxing time do you really want to exercise? To Get back up to take that walk amongst nature? Think about it how much time do you really spend outside?

    Is that the reason why depression is on the rise? Havard has done scientific research that has evidence to prove that nature can, in fact, increase our mood.


    Is nature the answer to fighting depression?

    What do you guys think? Could there be a connection let me know below in a comment.

    Thank you for you time reading this don’t forget to hit the like or follow button for more

    For now Jade x