30 days of health

How a month of afternoons outside changed my life. β˜€οΈπŸ’«

No it’s not the sun has super powers or is it? πŸ˜‚

The start of this month was not easy, I had to push myself most days just to get my fat ass up and move but it has finally been a full month I completed.

I have some pervious posts if you feel like you want to read the beginning of my little afternoon adventures.

I started this quest after a job loss, basically I had given up on practically everything in my life. I would wake up and be so exhausted from the night before sleep that I would go straight back down on the lounge. (It was a really depressing time, I wouldn’t lie. Probably one of my worse episodes). I was scared I felt drained, uninspired just lifeless.

I did the usual thing I normally do and rushed off to my doctors office and demanded new pills, better pills because the ones I was currently taking clearly aren’t working! My doctor assured me it was normally to feel somewhat down about the current events that I was enduring. I took that home with an attitude, she wasn’t going to help God they never do! Never do they listen to me! I’ll do it myself I concluded. That afternoon I went frantic searching all types of ways to heal this death I felt inside. That’s when I came across many study’s that had evidence going outside it would help improve my mood by increasing Serotonin so I wouldn’t just be a slump of skin laying on the couch day in and day out.

That was a month ago..

Today life has changed and although not drastically different it is in the process of improvement. I have goals again, a sense of wanting to achieve my dreams. Setting myself up so that this time next year I will be in a much better place not just financially but mentally and physically, perhaps even spiritually. I never thought in a million years that something as simple as walking outside for as little as half an hour then sitting as my dog plays for another would be part of the answer to happiness and success.

I am still in disbelief and I’m the one that transformed haha.

Life has been good to me and I thank the universe everyday for the positive I see in the world and it’s beauty. The suns rays feel different on my skin, it’s hard to explain but I feel more than before but it’s not pain.

With in this month I have started an online business selling my handmade products, enrolled back into university to finish my degree and found my passion to creatively express myself again. all from spending more time outside amongst nature.

Life is beautiful if you just slow down take the time and notice it. Once you start to notice the beauty, the ugly fades away !

My life has changed because I spent time outdoors just four weeks and my mentality has done a complete 360, it’s so simple you can do it to. I encourage you to get up and get outside embraces it’s natural benefits.

For now J x

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10 reason to be thankful today πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

As I sit and watch the sun make its way down after a long day I can’t help but think to myself, I take so much for granted in this world, Maybe my unwillingness to see the good in life is why I’m so deeply unsatisfied?

My first week steeping outside amongst nature was successful, enjoyable and beneficial. One week down only four more to go, I’m intrigued to see how much I gain from the full Complete month of embracing the world around me. As I continue to think I start to realise just how blessed I truly am, I mean right now I have the beauty of being able to see all that is around me, I’m able to take in all the smells that are around, touch the earth with my feet and hands but most importantly I’m able to express myself through voice about my experience. It was in that moment I really felt I needed to express gratitude for all that I had been given from the universe πŸ™πŸΌ


Here are 10 reason to be thankful today !

You woke up this morning 🌀

  • With all that goes on in our daily lives we fill our head up with all that needs to be done by a certain time or date. What appointments we have coming up tomorrow or what places we have to be, who we need to see and how much time we have left for all that needs to be done but Do you ever just take the moment to sit and think just how lucky we are to even be able to get through another day the requires so much energy? Or how lucky we are to have been able to sleep safe in our beds at night? I know myself I just don’t see how lucky I truly am, we are all prone to forget about gratitude when we have so much daily stress that fills our minds.
  • You have access to clean water πŸ’¦
  • This is something I know that I take for granted way to often. The ability to bathe and drink clean fresh water, I’ve seen many adds on the tv that show me stories of people who are struggling for necessities like this and my heart aches for them. I feel horrible and I want to help but I never express gratitude that I have the ability to access clean water so easily. I take it for granted like it is a given right to everyone and although it should be unfortunately this isn’t always the case.

    You have eaten today 🍌🍟🍝

    Another one I take for granted is the quick and easy access i have to get food. People all over the world are starving right now and yet I have the ability to go get food at any given time. It makes me extremely unhappy to know how easy it is for me yet for others they may not know when there next meal is here, yet again I’ve never expressed my thankfulness for how lucky I am. I only see the negative when in reality I have it pretty amazing. Take the time right now to thank God, the universe for all that you have for someone right now wishes they had what you have.

    You have access to electricity πŸ’‘

    Having the ability to write this post and connect with those around the world is a wonderful experience that I know I am grateful for but often I seem to forget how lucky I am to be able to access to these things everyday. I have the ability to see in my home at night, keep it warm and to cook all due to electricity. It makes life that much easier yet I’ve never thanked anyone, I’ve seen it as a given right and well it’s not! Even with the stress of the bill every month I’m grateful for all the benefits I’ve been given because of electricity without it my life could be so much harder than it has to be.

    Laughing and chatting πŸ€ͺ

    This one is tough for me because with the constant struggles of CPTSD and depression i’m normally one to run from emotion but on the rare occasion that I wake up in a good mood I embrace it and I’m happy, I’m laughing but mostly I’m ready to connect with the world. The past is forgotten and I’m ready to move forward, The days where I am motivated to get my shit done. I never stop and think wow thank you universe, thank you for allowing me to know what happiness is what joy feels like the way laughter can make you feel. I’m quick to point out all the bad but I never focus on the good that surrounds me. So I take this time now to say thank you for allowing me to feel the good with the bad.

    The ability to learn πŸ€“ πŸ“š

    If you have the ability to learn a new skill, language, solution to a problem or as simple as learning a new word then you should be grateful. The ability to retain new information is not something that everybody has the ability to do I know that I take it for granted myself! The ability to have such freedom in my educational experience is not a given, it’s a blessing. Although all children should have access to the same educational experience I have. The truth is far from it, if you have access to an education be great full for the blessing you have been granted. Without an education I could not read your post or Vice versa. So thank you universe for the ability to gain, retain and recite knowledge.

    To be able to watch the sunsetπŸŒ…

    The ability to watch the beautiful sunset regardless of where I am or what I am doing, I’m great full I have the ability to see the beauty the world offers us. I’m great full I’m blessed with the gift of sight to be able to look into loved ones eyes, to be able to make a connection through sight is a gift from the heavens. I’m grateful I have been given the gift of sight (even if it means I must wear my glasses) πŸ˜‚ I’m great full the world can experience all the blessing that come with the sunshine like that blossom of a flower.

    Tomorrow is a new day πŸ™πŸΌ

    If I miss an opportunity I know there are more out there that are for me. Tomorrow is a new day full of opportunities regardless of the mistakes I made before. It is never to late to start over again! I’m great full for the endless possibilities the world has to offer not just me but all those around. It’s a blessing that we have the ability to change and create what we want in life through the opportunities the universe gives us, we fight for or go in search for. The world is our playground and we should be thankful we get to experience all that it has to offer through it endless possibilities. Thank you heavens for giving us the next day to start fresh.

    Your past and the resilience is gave you πŸ’ͺ🏼

    Without the past you would not be who you are today. I hate my past my childhood was a nightmare but without it I would not be as strong and resilient as I am. So in hindsight I am grateful for all things that have happened for without failure you ca not Learn. Failure is your greatest friend for it teaches you about yourself. I’m grateful the path it has lead me on because insight of all the bad I have had a lot of good. I don’t express enough how grateful I am for all the good I gained from life even through the pain I am truly tankful. I am still here! My strength is only growing everyday and so is yours be thankful for what the past has taught you for without that mistake Or experience you may have never known.

    The air you breathe πŸŒ³πŸƒ

    As I sit and watch the sun I can’t help but focus on my breathe and how relaxed I feel. I’m thankful I have the ability to breathe on my own, I have two lungs with full capability of working on their own. This is another thing I take for granted and often forget our grateful I am to be able to have fresh air and a good set of healthy lungs to function so I am able to live everyday without the stress and struggle of breathing. It’s unfortunate because again not everyone has the ability to do so, so if you can please take this moment and be thankful because one day it ma change. We may loose access to fresh air due to climate change or from the destruction caused by deforestation.


    When we truly take a look around we can see many things we have to be grateful for although I don’t express it enough I am truly great full for all I have been given in life. I am going to make gratitude apart of my daily routine in week two of four of the world outside naming 10 new things daily I’m great full for to remind myself how lucky I am. I don’t know if this is the answer to solve my problems but I’m on my way to find out.

    Thank you if you took the time to read what I’ve posted it means a lot to me. Seeing you guys like and interact with my words brightens my day and keeps me posting so while I’m expressing my gratitude I want to say a huge

    THANK YOU πŸ™πŸΌ

    for now Jade x

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    My week amongst nature, 3 reason why you should get outside.

    How often do we just sit and embrace the true beauty the world has to offer us? I know before this week is was hardly ever!

    Before I embarked on this journey I was reluctant and hesitant because well as if just going outside and sitting under the sun could do anything for me, Like really? I understood that trees create oxygen but other than that I didn’t really see the benefit except for a solid tan with a dose of vitamin D.

    As the week progressed I started to realise just how much taking in the sun rays and watching the leaves Brussel through the afternoon wind had an impact on my day to day life. Now, You may be think “one week and you feel a change yeah sure” but just give it a go yourself and see how much your life improves over the week.

    Below are just three reason why should start heading out the door under the sun, beneath the trees embracing the wind on your skin.

    It reduces stress πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

    Throughout the week I had noticed a slight change in my reaction to everyday occurrences. Normally it doesn’t take much to get me flying of the handle but I was generally less stressed. It’s hard to explain the way nature kind of sucked my stress straight out of me leaving me with a positive peaceful experience, Five minutes in and I forgot all my problems and truly embraced the beauty of the world we live in.

    It was like magic

    a peaceful and blissful moment that you don’t get everyday during our hustle and bustle of the constant rush of society. I mean think about it yourself how many times do you actually go outside in a week?

    Increases energy πŸ’ͺ🏼

    The beginning of the week finding motivation well it was like try to find a needle in a hay stack and then to get up to go outside or even bring myself to complete the hour outside I won’t lie it wasn’t easy but what was, was finding excuses I’m lazy and not afraid but I still pushed trough. By the third day I didn’t even have to think about it I was actually planning what I was going to do during that hour. My daily routine because easier, less exhausting instead of at the end of the day feeling like I could completely crash out from exhaustion I felt relaxed, calmed and not in

    ah finally I have my feet up kind of way but a peaceful serenity.

    Increases mood πŸ˜ƒ

    With the help of nature Decreasing stress it’s only natural that my mood would improve. I was amazed how much nature actually did and could effect my mood to determine how happy I felt throughout my day regardless of any situation that was thrown at me I generally felt I could handle it I’m okay. I’m not a nature influencer normally but after the week I had I see why so many people love the outdoors.

    The feeling is not describable because I’m sure many people felt different but I know that it was all positive. It’s a feeling of enjoyment, peace wholeness.

    Clarity πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

    I noticed while spending my hour outside embracing the sun, wind and trees surrounding me that my mind was in a clear state. Almost in like a meditation state, This clarity I felt helped me daily to achieve my set task. With this clarity I didn’t have any nonsense clogging up my mind so is easy to make decisions And normally my middle name is indecisiveness πŸ˜‚

    I can’t express how much nature truely benefited me this week, well not just me but Bella my pup. I will continue to keep my hour outdoors as the sunset so I can embrace the beauty we have been gifted with.

    Have you discovered any changes in yourself with regular outdoor trips? let me know in the comments below

    Again a massive thank you to those that take the time out of their day to read my words may god bless you πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

    Don’t forget to leave a like if you enjoyed the read πŸ™‚

    For now Jade x

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    I’m tired.. oh so tired.

    Its wrapped around me covering me from head to toe like a slithery snake holding its prey for the kill. The weight is unbearable causing so much painful Pressure inside that I can’t hold it in anymore Im a tea pot ready to blow.

    I try and try to remove the slithering darkness that surrounds me, my thoughts, actions and emotions. I read constantly on ways to get the griped loosed, I’m tired oh so tired from the constant battle within. It’s hard to be me and be you at the same time, it’s hard to know who I am anymore without your breathe in my ears.

    I don’t remember when you first started to grab me and pull me within the waters to drown me with your darkness’s but I feel the tightness around my chest daily now, just ease up a little a let me breathe please? I don’t want to grab my chest in fear this breathe my be my last as you grasp tightly.

    I want to remember what it feels like to go out without you constantly screaming in my head how worthless I am, nobody cares oh and your favourite just kill yourself. I wonder all the time what it must feel like to look in the mirror without you, Not hearing you voice that is ice cold in the silent of the night before I sleep.

    They don’t know how good they have it do they? To not be stuck with you? To not constantly be under attack fighting what feels like myself but it’s you! It’s You slivering on in my life trying to destroy me.

    But god have mercy on you D because I’m strong and willing to fight I may be tired but I’m not a quitter! Yeah today you won but tomorrow is my day!

    For now Jade x

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    When are you having kids? πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘§β€πŸ‘¦

    It seems now every time I meet up with a family member or a close friend they are asking questions like when are you having kids? don’t keep us waiting to long now. You better get started soon or it might be to late. You know you’d make a wonderful mother.

    The statements seem harmless a curious question of when am I getting grand babies, when do I get to be an aunt? joyful expressions of I can’t wait until our children can spend holidays together But these statements can be extremely hurtful, add extra stress already on a person or even cause them to feel worse about the fact that they haven’t yet conceived and why.

    I have only been married a short time actually we just celebrated our first anniversary. We have been together for years and both have spoken about what we would like for our future, unfortunately things don’t always go to plan. God works in mysterious ways, we all know this.

    It’s been six years this year that I have been trying to conceive and unfortunately my miracle hasn’t been created just yet and that’s okay. What isn’t okay is constantly being reminding that I’m struggling in that aspect of life. It’s hard to explain to all your friends and family who have children or are currently pregnant (and gosh doesn’t it feel like every body) that it’s not because you don’t want them or from lack of trying but because it just isn’t a physically easy as one may assume.

    It frustrating that it’s so hard for myself yet seems so easy for all those around me, now I’d never take away their excitement or kill their joy anyway. I’m happy for all my friends and family who have been blessed. I am a woman just as them no judgment but I question why god blessed some with children and not myself. I see horror story’s of parents who treat their children disgusting, yet it’s easy for them. Oh well life isn’t fair I get this, be patient my time will come.

    But if your reading this and have a friend who has been in a long committed relationship with no children, think before you ask these question. You may actually be hurting one you love without actually knowing it.

    I believe it’s 1 in 5 are affected by infertility, so a lot more common than one may believe. It’s a struggle that many go through with only a 33% change every month. So please be mindful of your beautiful friends that are yet to become beautiful mothers

    As always I appreciate you and your time if you have read this, any view makes my day knowing at least one person is interested in my thoughts my words.

    Thank you πŸ™πŸΌ

    For now Jade x

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    not even in my sleep am I safe..

    It’s horrific that the idea that even when I lay down in a safe place, I close eyes to rest my mind and I can still be deeply disturbed by what you have done even 10 years later.

    The reality that each and every single dream can haunt me for weeks on a constant replay like a broken record stuck on repeat and you hate the fucking song, you can’t stand it. You creepy on in like Freddie fucking Kruger from nightmare on elms street you would honestly do just about anything to get away from but it is in your head there is no escape your stuck. I’m locked inside a prison I can see the bars covering my eyes, my soul is stuck. Is There’s no way out?

    It’s been a year since I have been diagnosed with complex trauma.

    At first I refused to believe such bullshit! How could I be suffering the same battles someone who went and served for their country is. There is no way my traumatic experience could be similar to theirs. It took a couple of weeks and physicists visits to have me understand why I would be suffering from complex trauma due to the childhood trauma I have encountered.

    I was mad that because of you I was suffering, you caused this. You selfish fucking bastard no care for anyone but your self. May god have mercy on your soul MR.

    but I’m not mad anymore you took all my anger, I’m not sad anymore again you have taken all of it. I can’t even hold you accountable anymore because i am the one who held myself in this victimised state of mind all these years. If anything i am mad at myself for allowing you to not only take those ten years away from me but for me continually allowing it for the next 10.

    NO MORE ! No fucking more!

    It stops right here today no longer will I be in fear of something that does not hold a threat anymore, no longer will I hold your guilt for something you should feel extremely guilty for. No more feeling sorry for myself and throwing validating pity party’s for myself.

    Today is the day I take control back πŸ™ŒπŸΌ

    You aren’t allowed to control me, my life, my journey and mind anymore! It’s time I take it back and prove to myself what I am worthy of , capable of achieving and hopefully helping others overcome the same suffering I have felt.

    Thank you again if you took you’re time to read this. I appreciate more thank you know. πŸ™πŸΌ

    As always if you feel like you want to leave a like or even a follow πŸ’•

    For now Jade x

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    Day one of 30 – embracing nature can boost your mood. πŸŒ±πŸƒ

    It’s Monday morning. Day one begins in the most unorganised chaotic start, Beep beep beep goes the alarm “huh what is that?” I think to myself half asleep rolling around like a bear that’s just awaken from hibernation stumbling looking for the culprit of the noise that disturb my sleep. All while mumbling erh, further proving my theory I am I fact a bear that has awoken from hibernation. I’m looking everywhere for the source of the noise on my dresser, under my pillows, on the floor even under the bed all to find out it was my stupid watch alarm. Oops 😬 *facepalm*

    “Dumb ass I am

    See i know myself and I knew I’d forget that I had set my watch alarm last night for in the morning so when it goes off, it would incline that I’d have to actually get out of bed to find the source of the alarm. Instead of hitting that sweet old snooze button πŸ˜‚

    Good work past me, got the ball rolling for Today’s me!!

    I’m awake and in bed cuddling with my husband when he leans in and kisses my forehead while whispering he loves me. I just soak in the moment and enjoy the present something I don’t normally do. It feels great just to embrace the moment of pure love. God how I do love him and so grateful to have such a patient man, but how the fuck did he not hear the alarm five minutes ago?

    Time to get up I convince myself I roll out of bed as my feet hit the fall I feel the fatigue hit me. “Eh it’s going to be one of those days” I think to myself and I stubble across the hall to the bathroom. Omg the chill of the morning air hits my skin “jeez it is bloody cold.” I turn the shower on as quickly as humanly possible and jump straight in to retain all the warmth in my body.

    Once out and dressed I think it’s Time to get embraced amongst nature, I’m still fatigued and not really feeling up for it but if I quit I’ll never know if nature can help increase my mood and hopefully be one step closer to being one day be medication free.

    I grab my dog Bella get her ready and off we go,

    we arrive to the dog park β€œokay jade just an hour then you can go home” there’s plenty of other dogs for Bella to keep her occupied.

    I find myself a seat under a tree half in the shade and half in the sunshine, it’s quite a warm day so I really don’t want to be full emerged in the sun. I open my book up β€œtime to get some reading done” I think to myself as I take one last look around embracing the sun and wind on my skin. The way the individual leaves on the trees move among themselves as the wind brushes through.

    Bella is off running with the other dogs they are having a jolly time, time to get my head down and see how much I can get read.

    As I flick page after page with a brief look up every now and then to check on Bella I suddenly notice the time and how it has gone by so fast. Wow, I think to myself an hour already. She’s still happy playing so I put my book down and I decide to jump up join her. We start playing tag she loves it her favourite game. I think she enjoys the fact she can outrun me so she always wins haha.

    Huffing and puffing I have the feeling like I could take on the world, I’m getting stronger than before and it feels incredible. Instead of being tired and fatigue like I was before the park, I feel energetic after a workout.

    I feel free,happy, I’m me at the moment not my illness an feels so good to be me. I mean nature and exercise sure did boost my mood and productivity, feeling pretty incredible.

    But negativity and it’s thoughts aren’t far away and they start “How long is it going to last how much longer before the cloud creeps in again and grasp me till I’m completely in its web of despair? I question myself.

    Is this why I to fall back into the darkness because I expect it every time something is to good. Am I to scared to be happy? Do I enjoy the pain of chaos? I have some serious soul searching to do I hope that within 365 from today I’m in a happy healthier state from mind body to soul.

    I Promise to hold my own I’m making my life a better experience. One step at a time slowly but surely, I will be able to succeed and Persevere to become who I am without the labels.

    The outcome after the hour an half of being outside, I felt clam, I noticed how nice I felt when the wind braced across my skin leaving me with a cool breeze to take in or the warmth of the sun on my skin. I hope that feeling I got after today keeps pushing me for the next 30 days.

    Wish me well I’m going to need it πŸ˜‰

    Thank you again for your time, I am truely great full for even having one person view so thank you πŸ™πŸΌ

    P.s if you feel like you felt inspired or motivated Leave a like or follow for more updates.

    For now Jade x